Yesterday would have been Fred’s third birthday.

We took an early trip up to Chagford, with the sun being rather bright and a heavy frost on the ground. We had a chat with Revd Gearing who conducted Fred’s funeral in May 2007, just as he was opening up the church.

He’d guessed it was an anniversary as we had a number of flowers to lay on his grave. Heidi mean while was pulling “Winston Churchill” faces at him. We trundled down to see Fred which is a bit difficult as the ground is uneven and Heidi’s pram isn’t really “terrain” at all.

The birds have been pinching moss of the grave, I suppose to build their little nests this time of year.

Once tidied up we headed off to Gran and Grandfer to say Hello, before driving down to South Petherton for the day to see Fred’s godmother, Frances. A lovely day with her, and Samuel and Daisy her two children, plus Shaun appeared too. I was a student with him many years ago in Newcastle and he’s now a nurse and who visited us whilst we lived in Bristol.

God bless you Freddie.

Over the Christmas break we visited Fred as we normally do, and I thought I'd post a photograph of his little headstone, taken on Boxing Day.

Thinking of you Freddie, on New Years Eve........ Daddy x

Today was a long, but lovely day, in that Rachel gave birth to Heidi Rachel Wills, weighing in at 8lb 8 1/2 oz. Born at Torbay Hospital at 1436h she shouted quite a bit. Heidi, not Rachel (who did really well of course).

It is sad in a way as I guess this will be the last time I ever put anything significant on here, as there isn't much to say really. I have though started a new 'blog just for Heidi as she desreves it I reckon: http://heidiwills.blogspot.com

Heidi will never meet her truly wonderful big brother. I am sure they would have looked after each other. I will maintain this 'blog as I don't want the hosts to think it is dormant in the future.

I wish you were with us Freddie, I really do.

Much love, your happy but very sad Daddy xxx

Today saw Rachel and I go to Torbay Hospital to see the registrar, anaesthetist and the midwife in preparation for tomorrows delivery.

We shall get there for 0800h and she is third on the list, so fingers crossed all will be well.

I'll probably do another post on this 'blog and see what happens.

Thanks

Today is the anniversary of when Freddie died, a year ago in Exeter.

We took a stroll to the Zoo as soon as it opened this morning and went to his little bench by the Gorillas and Orang Utans. The sun was shining and the apes were out on the island I thought enjoying the warmth. I think actually it was because they had all been locked out of their house whilst the keepers were inside sweeping up all their muck and empty banana skins.

We tied a little yellow rose to the bench, and because we were one of the first people in there, we spent a while quietly watching the apes and listening to the birds and monkeys.

Rachel and I thought about our beloved little boy and wished so much that he could have been with us. Sadly not.

Its been a quiet day today which is nice, very similar in weather to last year.

I won't do much more on this 'blog once baby is born, though I might add things just to make sure it does not appear dormant.

God bless you Freddie. x

Today Rachel and I visited Torbay Hospital to see the consultant about how baby is going to be born.

When Freddie was born he got stuck and was delivered by emergency caesarian and so at the time they suggested we would need to see if it were likely to happen again another time. After a chat with the consultant, he advised that a caesarian was probably the best option again, although this time we would do it by appointment....

So, all being well Rachel and I will head into the hospital on Tuesday 13 May and later meet a new little person. Baby may appear earlier of course (like Freddie who was nearly three weeks early) but we cannot do much about that anyway.

So hopefully all will go to plan.